It's been a long time since I have not used blogger and I feel so happy. Haggard. My baby jepon is not feeling well and I'm taking good care of her. Now she is sleeping and I m feeling bored. I just want to update my blogger about my love story update. Ever since I broke up with kesavan and then went on with Shaun and not for long with him and broke up too,  I got to know this awesome nice guy thevan. When I know him I knew my life would change and would be better. He just different from the other guys Ive known. In fact the best. I never knew I could stay with him this long thru our hard times. We really had bad times together like everyday,  little fights, little argument, little misunderstandings and all that will lead us to leaving each other.  But every single time he or I leaves each we will definitely come back together. Yes I suck at trusting and he suck at being sweet. But all this really change us,  change our life. We learn new things together.  At times I feel we can never make it till the end, we can never be together but I know I have to think positive and be strong thru out our relationship.  If both doesn't give in, it will lead us no where.  And I know God is always giving us the best. Whatever is gonna happen, I believe God did it for the best. I want us to be happy together.  I don't mind us not being like tbose other couples out there who always together,  had their special date,month,and year to celebrate together, and more. I just need you to promise to always be by my side, thru thin and thick.  I want u to be positive about us and I never want you to give up on us cause life is short and I never want to lose a special person like you. Seriously never in my life I loved a gift this much, I never showed much love to a guy too and I hope you appreciate me for who I am. That's about it. I will stand and be by your thru your happiness and hard time baby, I promise.I know it's time for me to change.  Mean while I need to be all alone and I promise to return back to u when I'm confident to be a better person for. I love you so much <3